Good and bad

[esmio06]

It is cool to look back and see how much more frequent my posts up here used to be and how much more intense the feeling was.
Tonight I hurt. I'm sad. But as I look back and remember how I felt a few months ago, this is almost nothing. Yes I miss her. Yes, for some reason I still love her and want her back. But, I basically just see that feeling as it happens. It does not consumer me or honestly even allow me down. It is real and it is there. But it is almost irrelevant.
Very strange.
On a happier not a good friend just had her first Insta intense feeling relationship. It is so cool to watch. I know that feeling. Personally I won't settle for anything short of it and it is so cool to see somebody experiencing it for the first time.