Lost in lucidity
Jul. 4th, 2008 11:23 pmone thing about hell is the longer you are here, the more detached you become from who you were, but every now and then, something will trigger a memory. A smell, the way somebody walks, the wind through a girls hair, it can be the smallest thing that sends you back spiraling into a lucid memory. I have been in that state for a week now. Im not even sure right now if i am really dead, or if all of this is some weird dream.
I still dont know what happened last week, or should I say how it happened. Im in a whirlwind. I havent seen her in the bar again since that night, but I still feel like I know her.
HE tells me that is what separates us from god and the angels; we can feel and that is why we are in hell. We were destined for this place the first time we refused to let go of a memory.
Anyway, tonight its Denise's birthday and this should prove to be interesting. Last year, well last year is probably a little rated R for this story, I will leave it at that for now. maybe once I start drinking I will share it.
B has gone back to her bar and I havent bothered to hire anybody to fill in yet, so I guess i get to stay behind the bar all night. Glad I set up for the night before i left last night cause I am really not in the mood right now to set up. It is kind of cool that HE isnt here bugging me right now, though Im sure HE will show up now that I thought that.
Well we open in an hour and Im going to go take a nap before people start showing up. I will write more later.
I still dont know what happened last week, or should I say how it happened. Im in a whirlwind. I havent seen her in the bar again since that night, but I still feel like I know her.
HE tells me that is what separates us from god and the angels; we can feel and that is why we are in hell. We were destined for this place the first time we refused to let go of a memory.
Anyway, tonight its Denise's birthday and this should prove to be interesting. Last year, well last year is probably a little rated R for this story, I will leave it at that for now. maybe once I start drinking I will share it.
B has gone back to her bar and I havent bothered to hire anybody to fill in yet, so I guess i get to stay behind the bar all night. Glad I set up for the night before i left last night cause I am really not in the mood right now to set up. It is kind of cool that HE isnt here bugging me right now, though Im sure HE will show up now that I thought that.
Well we open in an hour and Im going to go take a nap before people start showing up. I will write more later.