why does it seem
Feb. 23rd, 2008 02:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
esmio06that just as I start getting to feel almost alivve something stupid triggers a memory that should be trivial and bam David goes bye bye.
Spiraling I feel like i am on day one again today.Yesterday I was goofy most of the day, thn, while eating boiled peanuts Ihad a stupid memory and this time t seems that the spiral has brought me all the way back past the old bottom.
I am not this person that i am becoming. I have become weak and broken. I want to tell myself that there is a chance that one day... but I know that this shell I am becoming makes that almost impossible.
I never understood claustrophobia before, but I swear it feels like the world is closing in on me. Soon it will swallow me... then what? Who cares.
Spiraling I feel like i am on day one again today.Yesterday I was goofy most of the day, thn, while eating boiled peanuts Ihad a stupid memory and this time t seems that the spiral has brought me all the way back past the old bottom.
I am not this person that i am becoming. I have become weak and broken. I want to tell myself that there is a chance that one day... but I know that this shell I am becoming makes that almost impossible.
I never understood claustrophobia before, but I swear it feels like the world is closing in on me. Soon it will swallow me... then what? Who cares.
