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esmio06breath is short and fast and my heart is pounding. Im scared but I think Im right.
Time will tell, but for now the panic attacks need to stop. No matter what, I wont have an answer soon to what I believe and i need to move on until I do know.
I was thinking back to my preacher days. I used to preach "believing what you see is easy. Believing what you knew was true at one time, but the proof of has faded is totally another."
I believed this, I still believe it. No matter the pain involved or the time needed, I will believe.
I do not do this type of thing. People who know my history know that I dont say things like this, so I am not going to doubt myself or what I know to be true.
I will however protect myself because just because something is true doesnt mean that you will get to see it. things may not work out how they should, though i know that is the right way for them to work out.
If you believe you can face anything.
PS this is the gist of my panic attack. I feel hope and despair at the same time.
Time will tell, but for now the panic attacks need to stop. No matter what, I wont have an answer soon to what I believe and i need to move on until I do know.
I was thinking back to my preacher days. I used to preach "believing what you see is easy. Believing what you knew was true at one time, but the proof of has faded is totally another."
I believed this, I still believe it. No matter the pain involved or the time needed, I will believe.
I do not do this type of thing. People who know my history know that I dont say things like this, so I am not going to doubt myself or what I know to be true.
I will however protect myself because just because something is true doesnt mean that you will get to see it. things may not work out how they should, though i know that is the right way for them to work out.
If you believe you can face anything.
PS this is the gist of my panic attack. I feel hope and despair at the same time.
